Thursday, April 23, 2009

An Interview With Master

Tiger Eyes: I know You just realized recently that You were capable of a poly relationship, but were You nervous at first to pursue it?
Master: Of course, and on a deeper level, I still am... What we are isn't acceptable in our world and I'm nervous about being the odd duck in that.
Tiger Eyes: Were You surprised when Bright Eyes said she would be okay with a poly relationship or did You see it coming?
Master: I was a little surprised, but I don't think it was a big surprise. I guess I might have suspected as much; she talks about having been in one before.
Tiger Eyes: True, she was for a little bit. Did it shock You how easy it is for You to care for two women so deeply?
Master: It doesn't shock me. I've always known that I can care for multiple women, I guess it's natural that I can do it on this level too.
Tiger Eyes: Is it hard work keeping two women? I know it is a little easier on You since our birthdays are only one day apart, but is it difficult at times keeping our likes and dislikes separate? Or are we so similar that it is easy?
Master: Well, I have no problems keeping your likes and dislikes separate; you are two different people, so I see you each with your individual tastes... maybe like a 'total package' kind of deal. It is a rather fun challenge to keep you both happy and 'wrangle' the both of you.
Tiger Eyes: Thanks, I think, lol. I know my sister and I are more hard core lifestyle orientated with our relationship, but is there one aspect of the lifestyle You find Yourself more curious about then others or that You like more then others? Any that You absolutely don't like and try to avoid or only do to keep us happy?
Master: I don't have anything I want to try that you two don't know. I don't ever want to do a 24/7 deal, I do know that. And as far as lifestyle stuff, there are many things I do that I do to keep you two happy. I won't do it if I totally don't want it, but a lot of it is stuff I'm apathetic about but pursue because one or both of you want it.
Tiger Eyes: Is there anything lifestyle oriented that You may like to try but have not voiced yet?
Master: Not that I can ever think of. Since I trust both of you, I'm generally willing to mention anything like that, so there won't likely be any secret desires.
Tiger Eyes: Switching gears a little here. What is Master's idea of a perfect date night?
Master: Well, a movie maybe, a little conversation and maybe fast food. Just to get together and play it by ear. The most sincere events are spontaneous ones.
Tiger Eyes: Aww. Well, that answers this question, but here it is anyway. Are You really a big romantic at heart?
Master: I believe so, but not in the field of material things. I like saying sweet little nothings, as I'm sure you know. Just to let you know what I think is good about you; you often blush or cry when I do this.
Tiger Eyes: Yeah, You are good at that, Master, sweet little things. If You could have a choice between a full day in one on one with each of us, romantic dinner, movie, lovemaking, little rough play, or two full days of the same with both of us, which would Master choose?
Master: Can I have both? lol... the first one. I like you each independent of the other as well as together, but you can't fully connect with someone if there's someone else there, and I think I value that most.
Tiger Eyes: There is that romantic side, again, Master. What is Your favorite movie?
Master: Hard to say, but among the top are mostly comedies or WWII movies, like Spies Like Us, Life of Brian, Monty Python's Holy Grail, Sgt. Bilko, or Force 10 from Navarrone. Also, Payback is good.
Tiger Eyes: A few good ones on there. The other ones I have not seen, lol. Sort of loaded question here, but I asked Bright Eyes, so I am going to ask You as well, lol. Celebrity crush?
Master: Jessica Alba, definitely.
Tiger Eyes: Oooh Sexy, lol. If Bright Eyes and/or I could wear one dream outfit for You, fantasy dress up, time period costume, modern day style, etc, what would You choose for each of us? For Yourself?
Master: Modern Casual: Jeans, t-shirt or a sweater, sneakers
Tiger Eyes: How does it feel to have two women in Your life?
Master: It's fantastic. Most guys would only be able to focus on the sexual advantages, but it's nice having you both think of me, care about me, and support me.
Tiger Eyes: Is there one customary lifestyle thing either or both of us do for or to You that You like most? (kneeling, the capitol Y/H, wearing the collar, etc...)
Master: Well, probably not any one thing in particular... maybe just making yourselves available for whatever... *wink*
Tiger Eyes: Could You be any luckier?
Master: Not a chance, especially with the particular two I have.

Monday, April 20, 2009

When I'm not in the Mood...

Master and I had a discussion last night, and I wanted to write a few thoughts about it here. We left the discussion kind of open ended because I wanted time tot hink about it a little before really responding.
The conundrum was: What do I do if I really am not in the mood, don't think I will be in the mood no matter what Master does, but He is horny and Bright Eyes is no where to be found. If I am really commited to serving Master no matter what, I should be available to Him at any time He may want to fool around. On the other hand, Master has said He doesn't want Bright Eyes and I to be slaves full time, only occasionally when we have "slave time". So, what is a submissive to do in that situation?
Well, if I say no, and really mean it, I know Master would not force me to do anythign I didn't want to do, but would that be truely serving Him in any way possible? We all agree that Bright Eyes is more submissive then I am, and we know that she is more experienced on this side of the collar. Her reaction to this situation is different then the reaction I would have.
If Master was horny enough to not be able to wait and Bright Eyes was no where around and I was not in the mood, I would offer Master my mouth, first. If He insisted on more then just head, I would probably allow Him to fuck me, but I would ask Him to take it easy. I am fully confident that once Master slides in, I will become turned on. In fact, I am sure of it, lol.
What would Bright Eyes do? That you will have to ask her. This is what I would do, though. In this situation, I would not think less of myself for "giving in" becasue, I feel, I would actually enjoy myself by the time Master slides in, or very shortly there after.
If we were having a long distance cyber session, and I was not in the mood, would I just fake it and not actually act out everything like Master expects me to do? Not a chance. I would feel like I had betrayed Master if I did that. If it came down to it and I was jsut fooling around for Master's sake with not really being in the mood, I would tell Master first and ask Him if He still wanted to proceed. If He did and He knew I was not acting it all out, then it would be a different story completely. But if Master did not know, then I would not just fake it, I don't want to loose Master's trust, and that would definately cause Master's trust in me to falter.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Master knows

I don't know how or why, but Master knows what it is I need to hear at different times. He also knows what I need to feel. Master has been very understanding the last few days. My father ad a heart attack and I have been taking care of him and not in contact with Master. I know sending a text message only takes a moment, but my mind has been elsewhere. Master has been patient during this time. He even said He was worried about my father and about me. (I think, secretly, Master was worried I would do something silly like forget to take my medication or something, lol). Last night, though, Master knew I needed both tenderness and rough stuff.
Boy, did Master provide both of those to me last night. He can be so tender and gentle while making love that it brings a tear to your eyes, making me shed tears of joy and love. Then, the next, Master can be a strict Dom who expects His word to be followed to the letter. Master knew I needed both of those lovers last night.
Thank You Master. Thank You for knowing what I needed, what I wanted, and not questioning it. Thank You for understanding the last few days. Thank You for Your worry and concern, both for me and for Pop. Thank You for finding me worthy of serving You, Master.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Been Quite A While I guess

Well, it has been a while since I have posted an update, lol. I have been working some, relaxing some, and just generally goofing off, lol.
Master helped me discover another new fetish recently. In conversations with Master, I have hinted at thinking multiple cum shots from multiple people at once would be hot, as would the exhibitionist thing. So, Master, in His infinate wisdom, helped set the stage for me to explore these feelings. The first one we explored was my exhibitionist fantasy. Master picked up on clues from the way I said things and figured out I wanted people I knew to be in a crowd and watching me being taken and used by Him. So, in the middle of a cyber scene, Master said that He wanted me to call the neighbors and invite them over. In the fantasy, I did by simply calling and saying "My Master and I are having some fun, would you like to come over." (Mind you this is all fantasy) When the neighbors arrived, I was naked and by Master's side. He had me get up on the couch and He fucked my in front of the neighbors. The neighbors were a few guys, two of which I know from my professional career. Lets call them M and P. Master also took this time to try out something I had expressed an interest in before. He verbally degraded me. In the heat of the moment, being called Master's worthless whore and useless cum slut was a turn on.
In the fantasy, M and P, along with their friend I did not know, watched in amazement as I begged Master to beat me when I was ready to cum. While Master lashed me with the belt, I came when He gave the command. When Master was done enjoying His whore, He had me get on my knees and splattered me with His cum. M and P were amazed at what was happening. They watched as I cleaned Master's gift off my face, not wasting a drop. As they were leaving, M overheard me thank Master and tell Him I loved Him before I drifted off to sleep in His arms.

The exploration of the multiple cum shot fantasy was one Master set the stage for me to explore on my own in my dreams. I took Master's fantasy of having people watch and expanded on it to have Master offer my mouth to our guests as He fucked me. Knowing Master would not want me to embarass Him by not doing my best with teh cocks given to me to suck, but also knowing Master doesn't want anyone but Hi in that special spot in the back of my throat, I gave each guy there head to th ebest of my ability while not taking them into the back of my throat. Again, I begged to be beaten as I was fucked. Master allowed the other guys to belt me a few times while I sucked them, He also gave me a few lashes. When it was time for all of them to cum, they all showered my face and watched in awe as I took the shots and tried to clean up as much of it as I could. While I cleaned up, Master and our guests all sat around talking and watching tv. When I returned to the room from cleaning up, I sat by Master's feet, still naked wearing only my collar, while Msater visited with our guests.