Master's Rules

Since my sister already posted the rules, gee thanks, I thought I would post some new rule suggestions for Master's approval.
Each of us has to be completely honest about our least favorite impliment of punnishment and tell Master this, so He does not use something we enjoy when we misbehave.
When with Master in any way and going out for a smoke at night, the dress code is as little as possible, factoring in weather and neighbors.
Master's girls should be bald at all times for His pleasure.
If either of us knows of a rule breakage by the other, the disobedient one has one day to confess on her own, then tattling is allowed.
Once it is safe, at night, if Master does not say different, we are to be naked for His wondering eyes to peruse any time He may wish.
If something Master has given permission for (I.e. playing together) does not happen, the permission from Master does not carry over to solo play.
The assumed permission to play if Master does not reply is only for playing together and not solo play.

This is all I can think of for now, as far as suggestions go. I have been thinking about it because Master and I spoke about rules and so did Master and her, as well as she and I.

An Interview With Master

Tiger Eyes: I know You just realized recently that You were capable of a poly relationship, but were You nervous at first to pursue it?
Master: Of course, and on a deeper level, I still am... What we are isn't acceptable in our world and I'm nervous about being the odd duck in that.
Tiger Eyes: Were You surprised when Bright Eyes said she would be okay with a poly relationship or did You see it coming?
Master: I was a little surprised, but I don't think it was a big surprise. I guess I might have suspected as much; she talks about having been in one before.
Tiger Eyes: True, she was for a little bit. Did it shock You how easy it is for You to care for two women so deeply?
Master: It doesn't shock me. I've always known that I can care for multiple women, I guess it's natural that I can do it on this level too.
Tiger Eyes: Is it hard work keeping two women? I know it is a little easier on You since our birthdays are only one day apart, but is it difficult at times keeping our likes and dislikes separate? Or are we so similar that it is easy?
Master: Well, I have no problems keeping your likes and dislikes separate; you are two different people, so I see you each with your individual tastes... maybe like a 'total package' kind of deal. It is a rather fun challenge to keep you both happy and 'wrangle' the both of you.
Tiger Eyes: Thanks, I think, lol. I know my sister and I are more hard core lifestyle orientated with our relationship, but is there one aspect of the lifestyle You find Yourself more curious about then others or that You like more then others? Any that You absolutely don't like and try to avoid or only do to keep us happy?
Master: I don't have anything I want to try that you two don't know. I don't ever want to do a 24/7 deal, I do know that. And as far as lifestyle stuff, there are many things I do that I do to keep you two happy. I won't do it if I totally don't want it, but a lot of it is stuff I'm apathetic about but pursue because one or both of you want it.
Tiger Eyes: Is there anything lifestyle oriented that You may like to try but have not voiced yet?
Master: Not that I can ever think of. Since I trust both of you, I'm generally willing to mention anything like that, so there won't likely be any secret desires.
Tiger Eyes: Switching gears a little here. What is Master's idea of a perfect date night?
Master: Well, a movie maybe, a little conversation and maybe fast food. Just to get together and play it by ear. The most sincere events are spontaneous ones.
Tiger Eyes: Aww. Well, that answers this question, but here it is anyway. Are You really a big romantic at heart?
Master: I believe so, but not in the field of material things. I like saying sweet little nothings, as I'm sure you know. Just to let you know what I think is good about you; you often blush or cry when I do this.
Tiger Eyes: Yeah, You are good at that, Master, sweet little things. If You could have a choice between a full day in one on one with each of us, romantic dinner, movie, lovemaking, little rough play, or two full days of the same with both of us, which would Master choose?
Master: Can I have both? lol... the first one. I like you each independent of the other as well as together, but you can't fully connect with someone if there's someone else there, and I think I value that most.
Tiger Eyes: There is that romantic side, again, Master. What is Your favorite movie?
Master: Hard to say, but among the top are mostly comedies or WWII movies, like Spies Like Us, Life of Brian, Monty Python's Holy Grail, Sgt. Bilko, or Force 10 from Navarrone. Also, Payback is good.
Tiger Eyes: A few good ones on there. The other ones I have not seen, lol. Sort of loaded question here, but I asked Bright Eyes, so I am going to ask You as well, lol. Celebrity crush?
Master: Jessica Alba, definitely.
Tiger Eyes: Oooh Sexy, lol. If Bright Eyes and/or I could wear one dream outfit for You, fantasy dress up, time period costume, modern day style, etc, what would You choose for each of us? For Yourself?
Master: Modern Casual: Jeans, t-shirt or a sweater, sneakers
Tiger Eyes: How does it feel to have two women in Your life?
Master: It's fantastic. Most guys would only be able to focus on the sexual advantages, but it's nice having you both think of me, care about me, and support me.
Tiger Eyes: Is there one customary lifestyle thing either or both of us do for or to You that You like most? (kneeling, the capitol Y/H, wearing the collar, etc...)
Master: Well, probably not any one thing in particular... maybe just making yourselves available for whatever... *wink*
Tiger Eyes: Could You be any luckier?
Master: Not a chance, especially with the particular two I have.

When I'm not in the Mood...

Master and I had a discussion last night, and I wanted to write a few thoughts about it here. We left the discussion kind of open ended because I wanted time tot hink about it a little before really responding.
The conundrum was: What do I do if I really am not in the mood, don't think I will be in the mood no matter what Master does, but He is horny and Bright Eyes is no where to be found. If I am really commited to serving Master no matter what, I should be available to Him at any time He may want to fool around. On the other hand, Master has said He doesn't want Bright Eyes and I to be slaves full time, only occasionally when we have "slave time". So, what is a submissive to do in that situation?
Well, if I say no, and really mean it, I know Master would not force me to do anythign I didn't want to do, but would that be truely serving Him in any way possible? We all agree that Bright Eyes is more submissive then I am, and we know that she is more experienced on this side of the collar. Her reaction to this situation is different then the reaction I would have.
If Master was horny enough to not be able to wait and Bright Eyes was no where around and I was not in the mood, I would offer Master my mouth, first. If He insisted on more then just head, I would probably allow Him to fuck me, but I would ask Him to take it easy. I am fully confident that once Master slides in, I will become turned on. In fact, I am sure of it, lol.
What would Bright Eyes do? That you will have to ask her. This is what I would do, though. In this situation, I would not think less of myself for "giving in" becasue, I feel, I would actually enjoy myself by the time Master slides in, or very shortly there after.
If we were having a long distance cyber session, and I was not in the mood, would I just fake it and not actually act out everything like Master expects me to do? Not a chance. I would feel like I had betrayed Master if I did that. If it came down to it and I was jsut fooling around for Master's sake with not really being in the mood, I would tell Master first and ask Him if He still wanted to proceed. If He did and He knew I was not acting it all out, then it would be a different story completely. But if Master did not know, then I would not just fake it, I don't want to loose Master's trust, and that would definately cause Master's trust in me to falter.

Master knows

I don't know how or why, but Master knows what it is I need to hear at different times. He also knows what I need to feel. Master has been very understanding the last few days. My father ad a heart attack and I have been taking care of him and not in contact with Master. I know sending a text message only takes a moment, but my mind has been elsewhere. Master has been patient during this time. He even said He was worried about my father and about me. (I think, secretly, Master was worried I would do something silly like forget to take my medication or something, lol). Last night, though, Master knew I needed both tenderness and rough stuff.
Boy, did Master provide both of those to me last night. He can be so tender and gentle while making love that it brings a tear to your eyes, making me shed tears of joy and love. Then, the next, Master can be a strict Dom who expects His word to be followed to the letter. Master knew I needed both of those lovers last night.
Thank You Master. Thank You for knowing what I needed, what I wanted, and not questioning it. Thank You for understanding the last few days. Thank You for Your worry and concern, both for me and for Pop. Thank You for finding me worthy of serving You, Master.

Been Quite A While I guess

Well, it has been a while since I have posted an update, lol. I have been working some, relaxing some, and just generally goofing off, lol.
Master helped me discover another new fetish recently. In conversations with Master, I have hinted at thinking multiple cum shots from multiple people at once would be hot, as would the exhibitionist thing. So, Master, in His infinate wisdom, helped set the stage for me to explore these feelings. The first one we explored was my exhibitionist fantasy. Master picked up on clues from the way I said things and figured out I wanted people I knew to be in a crowd and watching me being taken and used by Him. So, in the middle of a cyber scene, Master said that He wanted me to call the neighbors and invite them over. In the fantasy, I did by simply calling and saying "My Master and I are having some fun, would you like to come over." (Mind you this is all fantasy) When the neighbors arrived, I was naked and by Master's side. He had me get up on the couch and He fucked my in front of the neighbors. The neighbors were a few guys, two of which I know from my professional career. Lets call them M and P. Master also took this time to try out something I had expressed an interest in before. He verbally degraded me. In the heat of the moment, being called Master's worthless whore and useless cum slut was a turn on.
In the fantasy, M and P, along with their friend I did not know, watched in amazement as I begged Master to beat me when I was ready to cum. While Master lashed me with the belt, I came when He gave the command. When Master was done enjoying His whore, He had me get on my knees and splattered me with His cum. M and P were amazed at what was happening. They watched as I cleaned Master's gift off my face, not wasting a drop. As they were leaving, M overheard me thank Master and tell Him I loved Him before I drifted off to sleep in His arms.

The exploration of the multiple cum shot fantasy was one Master set the stage for me to explore on my own in my dreams. I took Master's fantasy of having people watch and expanded on it to have Master offer my mouth to our guests as He fucked me. Knowing Master would not want me to embarass Him by not doing my best with teh cocks given to me to suck, but also knowing Master doesn't want anyone but Hi in that special spot in the back of my throat, I gave each guy there head to th ebest of my ability while not taking them into the back of my throat. Again, I begged to be beaten as I was fucked. Master allowed the other guys to belt me a few times while I sucked them, He also gave me a few lashes. When it was time for all of them to cum, they all showered my face and watched in awe as I took the shots and tried to clean up as much of it as I could. While I cleaned up, Master and our guests all sat around talking and watching tv. When I returned to the room from cleaning up, I sat by Master's feet, still naked wearing only my collar, while Msater visited with our guests.

Hawaii

Well, I am here in Hawaii, and will be here for a few more days. As beautiful as it is, I still miss Master and BrightEyes. Since I have been here, the time difference has really gotten in the way, lol.
There are so many things here I think I would enjoy doing with one or both of them, lol.
I went out to a few clubs with "Ben" the last few days. He knows about Master and BrightEyes. Well, when I left for Hawaii with him, he didn't know too much about them and what goes on within our relationship. I opened up to him and told him all, even things I had only recently discovered or only recently told Master about.
He knows now about my feelings and my fetishes, too.
The beaches here are amazing! I have been getting up early just to walk the beaches before they get too crowded. I think running on a quiet beach is both a great workout and a perfect time to think.
There have been tons of parties! And at each of them, I have felt out of place. More so then usual, honestly. I feel like, while I am here, my heart and mind are elsewhere. I canjust picture BrightEyes, Master and I walking along a beach and gazing at teh sun bathers. I can almost see Master and I at a party, or BrightEyes and I dancing with Master standing off to the side, nodding in approval.
With all the time I have had to think while running the beaches in the mornings, I am more sure then ever that I love BrightEyes and I am more sure of my feelings for Master.
When people try to buy me drinks, I find myself turning them down, thinking that Master would not like it if I got drunk, and how right He is to not like His girls drunk. I find myself worried more about what Master might think if He saw me in an outfit instead of what otehrs would think.
I know that, no matter where I am, Master is with me, all I have to do is look at or grab my tags to remind me of that.
I have met some interesting people, locals mostly. They all have a story to tell or experiences to share. I have been to the beautiful beaches, but I also made a point to drive through some of the less-visited areas, like those one would see on an episode of Dog The Bounty Hunter. Amid all the beauty of the state, there is still another side of it all.
I can't help but wonder, if Master and BrightEyes were with me, if He would allow us to go to the small nude beach, or if He would allow the two of us, or all three of us, to make love with the sand below and the stars above.
I know, not too detailed about my trip, but it is what is on my mind, lol.

Fears...

Master asked me to think about what my fears might be within the lifestyle. Besides the obvious, there are one or two.
I know, deep down, I am a little afraid of what people may say if we were out together, the three of us, and open about the lifestyle in public. I know a lot of people will disaprove and my image may be tarnished. As much as I do love Master and BrightEyes, I am afraid to loose my public image.
Part of me is afraid of giving up that bit of control over myself. Making someone else accountable for me as a person. It may be the years I spent denying my submissive side, it might just be the Domme side of my personality, but I am afraid to give up that last bit of control over myself. BrightEyes is able to do it so easily, and I know it is because she sees Master as worthy of her submission, and so do I, I just can't give up that little bit of control. I envy BrightEyes because, with all she has been through in the past, she is still able to fully give herself to Master in that way. I am afraid that, one day, my inability to give as fully as she does will cost me this relationship.
There really isn't much Master could say or do that would cause fear in me. My main fear is that Master will one day ask me to do something or say something and I won't be able to comply. Not due to a physical limitation, but a mental one.
I am afraid that, when we are finally together again in the flesh, the chemistry between BrightEyes and myself won't be there as it was in the past.
I am afraid of my feelings not ever being returned. I am afraid I am not the submissive Master would like me to be. I am afraid of the opposite end of the spectrum too. That Master's feelings for me may become stronger then they are for BrightEyes or that He will not be comfortable with BrightEyes submitting to me, or that she submits more to me then Master.
I guess that I am afraid of more then I initially realized, lol.

Out without Master

While Master was home, doing what He does while with His family, I went out. I have a certian image I have to maintain, and Master understands that and knows there are some things I have to do and act like I am having a good time. Luckily for me, I can go out with a good friend who knows all about Master and our relationship, so that makes it easier to have fun. He knows Master would want me to have fun while out when at all possible.
Well, "Ben" and I went out to a club while Master was home and had a pretty good time. He commented on my dress, asking if Master would approve, to which I explained that Master understands that I have to dress a certian way and He does not mind if people desire what is His, as long as they don't have what is His. Then, while we were out, he asked me if Master would aprove of me getting drunk, which I was not doing, lol. It is nice to have someone I interact with on an almost daily basis who knows about Master.
He said he would watch out for me and keep an eye on me for Master when He is home and not in communication with me as much as when He is on the road.
Having "Ben" around does help me not miss Master as much when He is home and helps pass the time a little.

Covered, more training...

Master gave me another training session today. He woke up needing some...relief. So, this morning, He used it as a trainign tool. He offered His cock for oral pleasure, which I gave, without allowing me to touch myself, then, when Master was ready to fuck me, another training session in itself, since Master expects both BrightEyes and I to have our pussies available to Him during every scene, He fucked me without allowing me to orgasm. When it was time for His release, He decided to spray His gift into my mouth, with my mouth open so He could see His cum spray into my mouth.
It was a good learning experience for me. It reaffirmed my place, reaffirmed what can be expected of me at times, to be used by Master for His pleasure with no reguard to my own, although this is the first time He has fucked me without allowing me to cum.
Now onto a more personal matter.
When I was growing up, before she died, my mother would keep her head covered during the day, as would my grandmother, only removing the covering when alone with my father or grandfather, respectively. It was a show of humality, humbleness and submission to their husbands, saving something for their eyes only, saving their crowning glory for their husbands, if you will. I have been doing this on my own, at home, when I am able to, for Master. I had mentioned it to BrightEyes and she liked the idea, especially since Master likes both of our long hair. I was elected amoung the two of us to speak to Master about this, since I grew up with it. I mentioned it to Master today and He said it was okay with Him if we both did it.
So, my sister submissive and I are both covered now, lol, our hair only for Master's enjoyment and pleasure. This is how I wear it most often.

BrightEyes has been twisting hers into a bun for now until she is more used to doing it when she wears an actual scarf and we both use a regular bandana type of thing when we want something simple while doing house work or for me when I go to the gym.

Interview with a Submissive (greater then I)

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Coming soon.....

Coming soon, BrightEyes and I will interview each other about our lives, our loves, our feelings for Master, and reuniting after so many years apart

I'm going to hell

I am definately going to hell, lol. After watching Witness the other day, I had a very vivid dream about Master, BrightEyes and myself. That is not the part that will be sending me straight to hell in a handbasket, oh no, the fact that is sending me straight to the gallows is that I transfered our relationship into an Amish setting. Master and BrightEyes were married on a huge farm and I was the spinster neighbor they were having a wild affair with.
Only I would take such a simple people, a people who are plain in every sense of the word, and turn it into a hot, steamy, forbidden, hell bound dream. I don't know what was worse, if we were all Amish in the dream, that Master was a preacher, or that it was a Sunday when the preaching service was held at their home.
It was hot and steamy, that much was for sure. It was in their barn at the border between their farm and the one I lived on. It was so vivid, I can still see Master in the straw hat and mustacheless beard, BrightEyes in the blue long sleeve dress, prayer cap, and apron, and me in the purple dress, cap, and apron. I can still smell the hay, still feel the wood of the hay loft under my back, the rough feel of the fabric of the homespun clothes as they were removed, still hear the distant mooing of Master's dairy cows.
I can still taste the kisses we shared, still feel Master's beard as His mouth traveled across my body, still hear BrightEyes' groan of pleasure. I can still vividly see Master as He helped us both pick hay out of our hair when we were finished, or feel His beard and hair under my fingers as I removed hay from Him as we all heard the cloppity clop of aproaching buggies. The twinkle of our acts still in our eyes as BrightEyes helped me return my hair to the unforgiving bun under the prayer cap. The wink from Master as He left the barn to get ready for the service. It was wonderful, lol.
Yes, I am without a doubt going to hell, taking an express bus there in fact, but as long as Master and BrightEyes come with me, I don't care, lol.

Where...

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I wonder where Master is....I know He was going to be home for extra time this time, but I wonder when He will be back on the road...I know He was a little jealous because I was in Tampa Sunday for the game, and it was a very good game, too, lol...I wonder when He will be back at work...I miss Him and our talks while He is driving.... I wonder if Master has started a blog like BrightEyes and I have... Or if He will, I would love to read what He thinks about our relationship, the life He leads, life in general, lol....

Domme vs sub

Master asked me what I think are the differences are between my Domme side and my submissive side. After a little consideration, I think I have some answers for Him.
I am going to start with my Domme side, mainly because I know that side of myself more, even though she doesn't come out to play as much, lol. When I am dominant, it is only to BrightEyes. There is just something about having a willing woman submiting to Me. When she and I are together, it is magical and right and natural. I feel strong and powerful when she submits to Me. I feel in control of everything. I also feel her love and devotion pouring out of her. When I apply the flogger to her tender flesh, I can feel the devotion radiating off her. I can feel the trust she places in Me. When we are finished with a scene, I feel the responsibility to protect her, to comfort her, to nurture her, to take care of her. The trust she has placed in Me for her after care is amazing, a heedy feeling even after the encounter is over.
Now, my submissive side is still new to me. Yet, it feels as if it has always been there. Submiting to Master gives me that same heedy feeling I get when BrightEyes submits to me. The trust I place in Him when submiting, it is a great feeling to be able to place that trust in someone. The freedom to enjoy the moment without thinking. The feeling I get when I serve Him. I feel that, when submiting to Him, I can give up complete control and trust Him to not take it further then I am comfortable with. Serving Him, making Him happy, brings me joy, satisfaction, and pleasure. Knowing Master's day was a little better because I did something for Him i a wonderful feeling.
When I give myself completely to Master, I am trusting Him in the same way BrightEyes trusts me. In submiting to Him, I have come to understand even more what BrightEyes feels when she surrenders to either of Us.
In dominating BrightEyes, I feel that I have learned how to be a better submissive for Master, I know what is expected of a submissive more. In submiting to Master, I feel it makes me a better Dominant to BrightEyes.

Owned..Officially, lol

Today, Master made His ownership of me and my sister submissive official. When she and I had been together in th past, BrightEyes was registered in teh slave registry. Today, I was thinking about it and turned her registration over to Master and registered myself in the registry. He officially owns me now.

549-572-850
Owned by
OwnerOfBeauties
12 December 2008

Present

While talking to BrightEyes, we have decided that we would love to get this for Master one day, if things continue to progress as they have been... It is the symbol for a poly relationship in which there are two women and one man...

Training at Master's Side

Well, I am sorry to say, I am not a very well trained submissive. I only know what I would have expected BrightEyes to do or how I would have expected her to behave when we were together before. I usually imitate that behavior. Today, though, Master took some time to train me in how He expects His girls to act.
Today we worked on one of my most troublesome aspects, the delayed orgasm. I usually can't hold off for very long once I begin to get the pre-orgasmic sensations. Master began His training of me to hold off and deny myself orgasm until He grants permission. Master had my play with myself until the point of orgasm and then stop. He had me retrieve my egg and insert it, turning it on without being able to touch any part of myself, until I was at the brink, then turn it off. Master had me do this several times, until I was putty in His hands, a whimpering, moaning, whining puddle at His feet. He distracted me by talking to me about other things, all the while the egg was humming inside me on low (Master allowed me to turn it down, lol).
Then, after about 5 or 6 trips to teh edge and back, Master told me to turn the egg on high and, without touching my tits or my clit, to cum for Him.
The orgasm was very strong, one of the stronger ones I have had in a while. It was a struggle holding off for so long and keeping myself from cumming, but I did it. The orgasm itself was a huge reward!
But, then, as a bonus reward, Master allowed me to give BrightEyes some special instructions for the next time He is home with her, some actions to do and ways to be.
Thank You, Master, for taking Your time to train and teach me. Sometimes, the better things are worth waiting for. Thank You for showing me that.

New cuffs

These are the new cuffs I got for Master's enjoyment. There is just somethign about the visual effect of being bound in clear binds that is so hot...

More bets

Well, it is conference championship weekend and, again, Mastyer, BrightEyes and I have made a few "bets" lol.
The first one is for a day of pampering. If Master wins the bet, we each pamper Him for a full day, if we win, He pampers us. Master's choice in this one. He chooses the Eagles. So, Eagles win, Master gets pampered and spoiled by each of us for a day. If Arizone wins, we each get pampered and spoiled for a day, lol.
The other game is a little difficult. Last week, my favorite team (The Ravens) knocked otu Master's favorite team (The Titans). Plus, we have to decide if we want this week to be completely gentle bets or somethign agressive, lol. Misty has left the terms of the bets up to me, lol.
If the Steelers win, each of Master's girls will give Him a night of oral pleasure ending with a facial (yummy) but if the Ravens win, Master will give us each oral (shiver).
I think both of those bets sound fair.
So, BrightEyes, if you agree ot teh terms of the bet, comment to let me know. I know Master agrees, lo.

Writing

I know I have not been as vigilant in writing as I would like to be, but I just can't think of anything to write about right now, lol. I am going to wait for BrightEyes to post an entry or two to try to get some ideas or see if Master can suggest a few things to write about, lol.
I just do not know what to write about, haha. I can come up with topics to suggest to BrightEyes, but none for myself. I am going to try to think about something to write about, or just steal some of her ideas, lol.

When did I....

I asked BrightEyes to put up a post like this, so I figured I would do it as well. When did I first begin to feel my Dominant side? It would have to be when she and I started dating when we were younger. It just fit. I can't really explain it. I just got a thrill from Dominating a woman.
I did not, however, know I was a switch for a long time after that. Honestly, I don't think it was until I began talking to Master that I realized I was a switch, that I liked both Dominating and submitting.
I don't think I could EVER Dominate a man. I am glad that Master does not want that, lol. And I could never submit to a woman, so I am happy that BrightEyes enjoys her role in the relationship so much, lol.
I have always known that I liked women and when BrightEyes and I began dating, I was sure I would never be with a man again. I was content to be a lesbian. There was only one true problem. No woman I ever dated after her could match up to the standard she set, the standard I began to judge every woman by. Not just looks, but personality and submission.
All it took was one conversation with Master for me to realize I was not a full on lesbian but bisexual, lol.
So, I guess you could say I came to know my role in a BDSM relationship later in life then some, and my true sexuality later as well.

Poker...

How do I fill th etime whiel Master is with BrightEyes and their family? I play poker, lol... I didn't do too bad the last two nights, won some money, so it all was okay...
After the matches, I lost a few bucks on teh slot machines, but it is all in good fun.
I miss Master more then I thought I would. I find myself thinking about Him constantly, wondering what He is doing. At least I know in a little while He will be watching the football game... I will also, we will just be rooting for different teams, lol. If the Ravens win, I get a swat for each point, if the Titans win, BrightEyes gets a swat for each point! Sinful!
Game time! I miss Master!

Without Him....

Master is going home for a few days. BrightEyes will be happy, lol, as will His family. But I will be without Master for a few days... :( I will get through it, I know I will.
I guess I will get a lot of work done while He is home, lol, so I guess that is a good thing, lol. I will miss our day long chats, though, but it will make talking to Him again when He goes back out all that much sweeter, lol.
There will be football to watch this weekend, should be a good game... Master and I have a little bet... For each game the home team wins, BrightEyes will get one swat for each point of victory, I will get the same for each game the visitor wins, lol. The swats will be given using the impliment of Master's choice, His hand, a paddle, a belt, or a flogger, lol.... Sinful!

Sub-drop....

I used to think that "sub-drop" was made up by submissives as a way to get attention. I was convinced that, when experiencing it after an intense scene, the shaking body, the ragged breath, the tears, were all faked, an attention getter.
I would think that, when apart, the submissive's claims of longing, the intense feeling of being alone and vulnerable, were imagined by the submissive to get a Dominant to feel bad for them for some reason.
But, now, I know better. And I will say this once, and only once, BrightEyes, I am sorry. I now know that what you experienced was real, is real. The detaching from something so intense, the end result of the hormones released during a scene, the release, or lack of release, of an orgasm.
I know now that this is real becasue, I have experienced it somewhat. I feel vulnerable when I am not talking to Master, which is kind of funny considering who I used to work with and who I surround myself with, lol, I feel that intense coming down after a scene with Him, I find myself thinking about Him constantly, thinking what He may like as I sketch, thinking what He may think as I work.
Man, I was wrong all those years ago, sub-drop is real....

Master/Owner/Dominant

Is there a difference between these words? Does one have more meaning then the others? Personally, I use them interchangably. Others might not. I think it all depends on your own relationship.
When I call Master by His titla, or I call Him my Owner, I am using it as a term of respect, of caring, of devotion. But, what does it mean to be a Master (or Mistress)? Having been on both sides of the collar, I think I can give a little insight as to what, to many, it means.
To me, being a Master or Mistress means that You accept the responsibility given to You. One accepts, when accepting the title from a willing submissive, responsibility for the submissive's mental and emotional well being. For their physical welfare, both in and out of any play time. One accepts the devotion and caring. You accept the responsibility of being the person's protector, and not just in a physical sense, but also in an emotional and mental sense. You are the one the person will turn to in times of need, pain, suffering, and angst.
But, also, You are the one the person will turn to in times of joy and success. The submissive's success is also, in part, Your success. Their happiness, Yours also.
Many young "Doms" today only see the control aspect of the relationship. They see a submissive, one who may be too naive to know better, as a doormat to be controled and neglected. A true Dom, worthy of the title Master, is one who shows self-control, self respect, compassion, gentleness when needed, sterness when warrented as well.
The title is not given easily or willy nilly. It can only be given of the submissive's free will, to one he or she deems worthy of the title. If accepted, the Dominant who accepts it must do so willingly, of His or Her own free will, accepting all that is offered with the title.
The little things that are done to show devotion by the submissive or to show care by the Dominant are just nice little perks! :)

A Fantasy for Master...

Maybe my subbie sister can help me develop this for Master... Or perhaps Master can participate in this....
I wonder, though, what Master would do if both BrightEyes and I were in front of Him in cheerleader outfits.... Since He doesn't like Naughty School Girl costumes, lol (probably because both subbie sister and I went to Catholic School, lol)

If only they knew...

I, like my subbie-sister and Master, am not out of the toy box to anyone. At times I think my life would be simpler of O was out of the toy box to everyone. Would people be accepting of what I really am? Of who I really am? I wonder what people would say if they knew...
Woudl it be a total shock to people? Would people be understanding? Would they still think the same of me if they knew?
I know Master would, as would my subbie-sister. But would everyone else? Would those who think they know me? Would my life be simpler if I didn't have to hide what I really am?
Would I come out of the toy box to all if Master reuested that I do? Yes, but I know He would never ask that of me. He respects me enough that knowing I would do so if He asked is enough for Him.
I just think things like this from time to time.

Stumbled....

I really want to be a good girl, I really do. I just hit a few snags here and there. I had confessed to pleasuring myself without Master's knowledge or permission to climax, knowing I would be punished in some way, but also knowing that if Master found out on His own or later, the punishment would be worse. This was more of a mind punishment then anything else, if you want my honest opinion of it. Don't get me wrong, it was uncomfortable, but it forced me to think.
I really want to be a good girl for Master. I should not have taken it upon myself to pleasure what is His without His knowledge or permission. Master is proud of the fact that, generally, BrightEyes and I are well behaved.
I was left there, though, to think about what I had done. And how it looked to Master that I had to go off on my own to pleasure myself.
The punishment was humiliating. And I could do nothing about it either. I am greatful Master took time out of His evening to punish His naughty girl, and I will try to be a good girl for Master in the future. I want to behave for Him, I want to pleasure Him, and I know by behaving, I do bring Him great pleasure and pride.
I am sorry Master, for being a naughty girl, for touching myself without Your permission, and for climaxing without Your permission.

While the Cat's away...

...the mice shall play. What do you get when subbie sisters both, generally, behave? Well, when we both behave well enough, Master lets us play together without Him being there! Master allowed BrightEyes and I to play last night and we had a wonderful time. Thank You, Master, for allowing Your girls to play last night.

Dirty Shower.... (NSFW)

When I left Master to take a shower this morning, I was given a small task, to thing of Him with me with my hands bound behind my back. Here is the fantasy I had of Master and I in the shower. Written as if I were telling Master the fantasy.
After I undressed and removed my collar and jewelry, I pictured You coming up behind me and taking both of my wrists in Your hands, binding them behind my back. After You had finished, You stood back a moment, gazing at Your handiwork and all that is Yours. You made a little motion with Your hand, telling me to turn around and You gazed at my backside, which still bares the redness from my whipping last night, along with a small welt or two. Because I was not wearing my collar, You had left a length of rope free after binding my hands behind my back, You quickly undressed and led me into the shower by the rope.
Taking the shower head in Your hand, You used it to wet me down completely, head to toe, seeing my hair wet for the first time. You lay the rope leash over my shoulder to remind me it is still there and tell me that You don't expect to have to use it to keep me still when You would like me to be still, but You will if needed. You gently take the soap in Your hand and work it into a lather, telling me You want to really explore and take the time to see all that is Yours. You work the lather over my shoulders and neck, paying extra attention to the line where my collar usually is, kissing along the line as You use the shower head to rinse the soap, pointing it at my pussy when it is not being used.
When it comes time to soap my shoulders, You take the rope and let it dangle down, getting an idea, You put it between my legs so it splits my pussy lips, nestling in between them and every motion of my pelvis causes the rope to rub my clit. You keep the end of the rope in Your hand so You can vary the pressure on my lips and clit as You soap my collar bone and upper chest area. As You rinse each area, You kiss along it, savoring all that is Yours. You also have some fun pulling the rope, pulling my hands further down behind me, tighter against me.
You begin soaping my tummy and pelvic region, my hips trying to thrust out to You for Your attention, the rope rubbing my clit, You keep the tension as tight as You can while You are working down there. When You finish soaping my legs, You remove the rope for a moment and tweak my clit but otherwise You ignore my hungry, greedy pussy.
You untie my hands for a moment and move them to my front because You want to explore my back and don't want my hands in the way and tie them to the shower curtain rod so they are out of the way, above my head, and, because You liked the idea, You run another rope around my waist and run a rope between my legs again, spreading my pussy lips again. You begin to soap my back, again pointing the shower head between my legs when it is not in use, knowing how close I am from rubbing against the rope and the spray of the shower head.
When You get to my ass, You switch the water to cool and gently caress the redness, gently stroking the welts, fascinated by them, by the marks of your ownership I wear with pride. You trace them with Your finger and ask me if I enjoyed recieving them. When I answer yes, You say You will have to remember that.
When you are finished soaping me up and down, You turn me around, keeping my hands above my head, holding the rope that is between my legs, and begin to wash Yourself with me watching, but not able to touch. All I can do is thrust my hips out to You and beg to be taken. Before You can get too far into washing Yourself, You take another small length of rope and use it like a gag, closing it with a knot behind my head, the rope between my teeth, preventing me from speaking, from begging, and continue to wash Yourself, the tension in the rope varying as You wash different parts of Yourself with me stretched out, my hands still tied to the shower curtain.
When You finish, you point the shower head at my pussy again and tell me to enjoy it, knowing how close I am. Between the pressure of the rope against my lips and clit and the water, I am close to cumming quickly and do so.
You turn off the shower and begin to stroke yourself, keeping the rope between my legs tight. As Your cock begins to stiffen more, You stand on the side of the tub, putting Your cock by my face. You stroke Yourself to orgasm, giving my face a second shower as You cover my face with Your gift of cum, getting it in my hair, all over my face, dripping some on my tits. When You feel the last of Your orgasm move through You, You take the end of the rope and tie it to the loop of rope around my wasit, pulling it tight.
You step down off the side of the tub and leave me there, like I am, while You dry Yourself off and get dressed, then untie me and allow me a few minutes to clean Your now dried gift off my face and to get dressed....

Punnished and Whipped....

I have given a whipping before. In fact, BrightEyes loved when I had her bound and gagged and began to use the flogger on her smooth flesh. But, I have never felt the sting of the lash until last night. It was amazing! I was expecting to be paddled since Master knows how much I love that, but instead, He used His belt on my backside. But first, let me write about my punnishment and what I did wrong that master would punnish me.
Not much will earn a punnishment from Master, He likes His subbies to be well behaved and we are, for the most part. So when a transgression occures, it wil be delt with. This time, I avoided Master sexually without a good reason for several days. So I earned five slaps to the lower lips with the slapper (a mini paddle). I was on the edge of the bed, gloriously spread for Master, gagged but not bound or blindfolded. I recieved 5 slaps to my lower lips with Master's slapper. I knew Master would want me to count them, so I counted most of them through the gag. When Master was finished with my punnishment, He removed the gag from between my lips and I kissed the slapper, tasting a hint of my own juices on it's wooden paddle.
After a little head for Master, He flipped me over onto my hands and knees and told me to look ahead and not worry about what He was doing. I did as instructed and felt something stiff and leathery on my ass suddenly, caressing it. Before I could really know what it was, it was gone, and I heard it whooshing through the air, landing on my ass with a sharp crack. Oooh, the pain from it was exquisit! When I was able to think clearly again, I counted the lashes for Master, earning the last of them by sucking Him deep into my mouth. I recieved a total of six lashes from Master's belt, each more wonderful then the last. The first four He gave me standing behind me and the last two were with Him in my mouth, one to each cheek. The pleasure/pain combination was so intense and so wonderful that I almost orgasmed right there fromt eh feeling of the whip against my skin, but I knew Master would not liek me cumming without His permission, so I held off and enjoyed the feel of the leather cracking down on my backside. When Master was done, my ass was a nice shade of coke can red, warm, and stinging. It was amazingly wonderful to have the feeling of letting go to enjoy something like that!
I never understood that the sting of the belt could be so.... wonderful... Thank You Master for the experience and for expirimenting with Me. Thank You for giving me the ability to let go and enjoy the whipping. Thank you for being worthy of the trust it takes to allow someone to do that to me. I enjoyed it completely, Master.